I miss you so much, today I regretted my decision a bit. Everywhere I went today I was reminded of you. Where I went for lunch, when I saw a bbq place right next to kurbanfry which I know you'd definitely like, when I went for massage but next to me was no longer you. Wondering when I would ever hear from you again. Today I regretted a bit not pleasing you a bit more before, being too afraid to give you my all towards the end, thinking it'd make it easier for us both.

I just miss you so much.

I should never have let my guard down, even for the slightest bit.

I should never have given in to my temptations, even for the slightest bit.

I should never have given you any reason to accuse me of making use of you.

I will never allow myself to be hurt again.

I miss you a little more tonight... 

I miss you.

More than you ever know.

More than you'll ever know.

Imysm.

And I worry about you.

But I'll just be pretending to show concern.

So keep it in.

You said I'd see how well you treated me if I read my blog. That I would see how you were always there for me. There was a reason I stayed away from my blog for so long. It always reminds me of how much I love you, along with the most bitter memories and most heart-wrenching pain I've felt in my life. 

I still miss you but now I'm reminded of how my heart was cut deep too, many a times.