unearthed.

posted : Monday, February 23, 2009

title : a new start.

I was clearing my stuff the other day when I chanced upon my diary. Not updated for 6 months cause I totally forgot plus no time plus no super significant events to write in the diary.

But, I think it was just really really interesting and intriguing rereading my entries. All the memories flashed past before my eyes so vividly( okay, like writing primary school composition can). Made me see what kind of a person i was then and the person I've evolved into now. But one thing's remain unchanged though.

I'm a reactive bomb.
I feel so strongly.
And I usually react as hard. =D

I think having a diary is great. It makes it possible for me to jot down my innermost thoughts without having to worry about the consequences. Because the book's only meant for me alone, away from all the prying souls. And THAT, is the difference between a diary and a blog. =D

Then you ask me, why have a blog?
It's not like the words are straight from the heart.
That's because a blog allows you to recognise and rethink your thoughts such that you're forced to see it from another perspective as well.
Sekurang-kurangnya, perbualan ada alas, and main thing is, sometimes the stuff you can't say straight in the face can be conveyed through the words. Plus maybe, I just have nothing better to do lah har.

But, now I'm beginning to have second thoughts regarding the continuity of the existence of this blog cause I realised how sometimes, I need an outlet so much, I tend to say too many things not meant to be said on the blog. For example, the previous entry was not meant for my dearest girls to read but I found out that they read it! I have no idea how they knew about my blog urh. But nonetheless, THANK YOU Huda and Peggy for asking, for showing your concern, and for listening. Appreciate it, but most importantly, I learnt something from this episode huh.
Ashyu and Wid, of course thanks to you guys also, for always bearing with my sudden change of moods and my grumpiness arh but for understanding why! The Raihannas also duh. (see Jah, I mentioned!). Elia, for asking. =)

Stars-key, no doubt most thanks goes to you for listening to me that night. Plus for all those advice and words of encouragement given. I still owe you your sago honeydew after so long dude. =/

So nvm2, I'm putting everything behind. They'll serve to be useful when I need motivation. A brand new day, a fresh new start, Insya-Allah.

I think history is really interesting though.
Everyone has their own stories to tell, their own history in the making.
But what differentiates these different stories is the fact that which would have the ability to stand out in the end.
It's not about who took up the most fearsome dare and completed it,
not about who becomes the richest and most successful,
not also about who can become the wildest party girl in town.
In the end, its all about how you've impacted other people through your actions or stories.

Cliche?
But think about it.
It is true.

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