unearthed.

posted : Thursday, April 23, 2009

title : pain.

I'm in excruciating pain.
That's how I would describe the pain on my thighs.
But, I checked and according to dictionary.com,
a pain is something that hurts; an ache is a prolonged dull pain.
So I guess I'm aching all over in agony then.

Argh.
Throbbing.
I can't even walk up the steps or walk properly without looking like a baby crab or something.
We've been doing lots of leg/thigh muscles activities for trainings lately. And I really really regret not stretching longer and properly! Haiyaa.
Just hope it won't take as long as the previous time to recover this time round.
The previous time my calves got affected, I had to wait for one month before the pain disappeared. Not time for one month already!
A DIVS IS JUST NEXT THURSDAY!
Gahhs. =/

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm not pushing my girls hard enough.
Or if I'm pushing too hard.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing things properly,
if I'm a good Captain.
We all have insecurities, we all have fears.
But I'm just so afraid of disappointing the team.
I'm not afraid of losing.
But I greatly fear I won't lead them to battle like we're ready to fight till the last breathe.
How do I tell them that all I need, is for us to fight like we won't see tomorrow?
How do I tell them that despite all their shortcomings, despite our mistakes, I still love them?

I guess that's my challenge now.
Have faith.
Like I've never before.
And the rest will follow according to plan.

10:53 AM