unearthed.

posted : Saturday, June 20, 2009

title : missed.

It's only been less than 6 hours, but tears has already been shed...

Have you ever felt like you could go on missing someone every single second of your life?
Have you ever felt so much emptiness, you feel like you're on your own on this Earth?
Have you ever not felt like going home, but suddenly yearn so much to just reach within the safe walls of your home?

I felt all that just now.
Call me emo.
Call me freak.
I just miss my family.

I didn't cry when Mama hugged me goodbye, didn't kiss Huda enough,
just waved them goodbye with a smile on my face.
And I hope they remember me that way, just as how I'll remember them smiling in excitement as they walked through the departure gate...

I remember how I used to dread coming home on some days, not ready to face the noise at home, the drama and things that could leave you mad for hours.
But now, there's nothing I would love more than to see Mama in the kitchen, Papa on his chair, watching online dramas, and Huda annoying me like crazy...

God, how I miss them.
And it's only been a day.
Let the countdown begin.

6 more days till I'm a happier woman.

I've been so sensitive lately. Too easily affected by little things.
I cried after reading Rooftop Rant by Hlovate today.
Been so long since I last cried just from reading a book.
And Hlovate's books works wonders with me. They always managed to touch a raw nerve in me. Make something inside tick. Make me feel like I've been a bad Muslim...

Things that didn't kill you just makes you stronger...
As Hemingway puts it,
Life breaks us all, but in the end we're stronger in all the broken places...

To live well or to live hell,
I CHOOSE.

Rasulullah bersabda, yang diriwayatkan oleh Imam Bukhari: "Dan jika kalian meminta kepada Allah, maka mintalah syurga Firdaus, sebab ia adalah syurga yang paling tinggi."

Impian adalah titik mula gerak langkah kita, kesungguhan dan keyakinanmu bakal menentukan titik akhirnya.

With that, I wish....
For a place in Firdaus.
For Mama and Papa to be loved by Allah always.
For the best on Earth and the life hereafter...
Insya-Allah.

Allah protects those spreading Love through His Glory.
Where are those who love one another through My glory? Today I shall give them a shade in My shade, it being a day when there is no shade but My shade.
(Related by Al-Bukhari and Malik)

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