It's already past 123rd post! =)

Okay, this week has been a weird studying week.
Been going back to school since Monday for COMPULSORY STAR program which the teacher-in-charge claims to be strongly encouraged, by the way. Uhuh.

Look at the difference between our mindsets.

Anws, I don't think it's that bad lah. Cause I've been quite productive I guess. But I still think home is a better place. Even with all the crazy noise going on and all. Plus at least I wouldn't be abstained from food. But then again, at least I wouldn't blow up at the rate I would have had blown up if I'd stayed at home? Opportunity costs. =)

I know this is super childish, but I'm addicted to the Hannah Montana's Hoedown Throwdown song. I'm learning the dance steps. Laugh all you want. But I'm the one getting the laugh out of it plus at least maintain some form of exercise. Hehs.



And I've been keeping shut about this for some time now.
Guess all I did was run away from reality.
But I need to let this out now.
So I'll stop brooding over it real soon.
Get on with life.
Get away from us...

Well, it was my fault to begin with.
I neglected first.
Then I lost her.
To a point where even though we both tried and are still trying, it's impossible for us to mend things, to get back to the times we both shared.
Everything's just...over.
I guess we both found new people in our lives.
And though I miss her like hell at times,
I know I have to let go, cause she's happier this way.
She's happier with another...friend.

It's sad really.
And though sometimes my heart yearns so much to tell her things, share with her some things I know only she can understand best, something just stops me from going on.
From sharing things with her the way I used to...
Like I said, it's already at the point of no return.
The only way to be optimistic about is, at least we didn't end on a bad note.
And we're still friends and all...
But,
nothing's going to be the same ever again.
I love you.

I ought to sleep now.
Going out with the rest tomorrow to study.
Make it a productive session, fathin.
Please don't regret and procrastinate all over again.
Please!
And yesterday was such a weird dream! I dreamt about Pkck Superman.
Plus some other people.
It was so bizzare.
And just...weird.
Okay only I talk to myself.
Boo.

Just now was a good dinner.
Saved cost by half and I had fun.
I shall irritate them with the hoedown throwdown tomorrow.
Haha!

I missed you.
Like heck.
Make me come back.
Love me again.
Please.

Keep me strong.
Cause that's the only way to keep me going.