unearthed.

posted : Wednesday, May 26, 2010

title : bye bye byeee.

I'm suffering from nervous breakdowns every now and then cause I can't help but worry till I feel like pulling all my hair out and I feel like jumping up and down continuously to soothe all the tight knots in my stomach and scream my lungs out and my throat sore to release all the pent-up stressness (is there even such a word? ah who cares, GP's over!) that I've been bottling up for the past one week it's suffocating me to near hyperventilation.

Tomorrow is the College's Sports' Day but apparently they're not even giving us any leeway cause we've still got school as per normal tomorrow till afternoon then we're all dismissed for lunch break then voila! Let's all run or sit in deign and watch people run run run. Ironic really, how I vowed to myself in secondary school never to miss partaking in any Sports' Day as I looked at my other schoolmates who acted like they were going through intense torture just by sitting on the spectators' stands. But look where I am now or rather where I'll be tomorrow cause I'm obviously going to break my own vows. Tsk tsk.

I know I'm just ranting incessantly without making sense at all cause I'm not even making sense to myself and I know the organisation and structure of my entry this time is really really really baaaad. There's like paragraphs in paragraphs and no paragraphs. Hahahahaha.

GP's over and I think I screwed my Paper 2 and it's my first time experiencing nervous breakdowns before GP that I'm forced to wonder whether it's a premonition of my horrendous results. Please don't let me fail GP for the first time!

Argh.
I seriously need that weekend cum Vesak Day getaway to Pahang. Which I'm confirmed going to tomorrow btw.
So yes I'll enjoy being buddies with someone unknown cause my two sisters decided to pair up and leave me all alone to socialise with the world when they know I'm super SHYYYYY and unsociable.
Okay yes, time to sleep.
No pack first.

And thanks (insert website) for acting up and not letting me download videos onto my phone, epochal in ensuring my sanity throughout the journey to Pahang.

THANKS!

And once again, I hate boys.
I really do.

9:06 PM