Yesterday over-nighted at Nenek's house in Plentong with the family cause Atuk treated the whole family to seafood at Senibong! =D

The whole family practically took up half of the place and we seriously ate to our hearts' full. Just a little bit disappointed with the seatings cause we were seated according to our families per table, so there's not really much interaction with the extended family. But then again, haven't been eating at the same table with my family for such a long while since we've not been eating out anymore, so it made up for that loss. Plus we had much interaction done after the dinner before sleeping time since almost everyone slept over at Plentong.

They watched Insidious too at the Plentong home, and everyone was just practically screaming their heads off in the middle of the night, I was obviously woken up from my slumber. Tsk tsk.

Papa and Mama made our 'small' family visit our house too which is just a couple houses down the street cause it's apparently wrecked after the last tenant who rented our house left. So we're supposed to do some cleaning and all. Guess what we found?! We found chickens' feet being hanged all around the windows of the house, I have no idea what the previous tenant was thinking of seriously. But yes, we haven't gotten down to removing and cleaning yet. Insya-Allah, all will be okay lah.

Went shopping for a while at Jusco after that. And I bought myself yet another pants. I've been stocking up on pants in my wardrobe, which doesn't really make sense if you really think about it, cause I haven't exactly been stocking up on my clothes. This would be like the third one in this month alone. So yeahhhh.... I have to really stop ogling at pants the next time I go shopping cause I have more than enough for now. =)

And yes, I've decided to accept SMU too, cause it's kinda been my aim since I entered JC. Alhamdulillah, my prayers were answered, now let's just pray that that would be the best choice for me in this life and the hereafter. =D



And been thinking a lot about a matter recently, and it just made me realise how funny relationship between people can be sometimes.

Someone once told me in secondary school, "People come and go in your life." Technically that is true, obviously. It's just that I've never really believed in those words as I was growing up cause I used to have such indefinite and seemingly unbreakable faith in the friendships I was having with my friends then. And of course, I never though I'd be the introvert I am now, since I was the exact opposite back then. Who'd knew, JC life could change me in ways more drastic than I could ever imagine...

Not that I'm complaining of my change, cause I really appreciate that I'm the me now. It's just that, there's always this niggling thought at the back of my head, thinking about all the what-ifs. What if I had remained the extrovert I was today? Would I still be close friends with all the people I used to be close with? Would I have allowed myself to drift away so easily from the friendships I've built over the years?

Of course I'm not putting my change into an introvert as an excuse as to why I'm no longer close or even friends with the people who were my friends before. Circumstances and experiences played a part mostly. Things happened, I changed. Things happened, you changed. We changed.

We could have changed the way things turned out. I had a choice. You had a choice. We all have our choices. But we both chose to let everything go. And we never made any effort to revert things, or amend things. Cause that's just the way people function. Well, most people at least. We let go off things that seem far from us, and just hold on to whoever is closest to us next, without trying to close that gaping hole which makes things seem far.

I'm not exactly proud of the person I am today.
Of the type of friend I've become.
I've become progressively selective of my friends over the years, there is a clear visible line between my friends and acquaintances now, when everyone was a friend last time as long as you're a familiar face and we've strung at least a sentence in speech.
I realise I let go too easily now.
I give up too easily.
I expect every relationship to always be a mutual effort between the two parties, I've stopped trying to give in more.

It's shameful really, when I think about the way we're living. I'm living.
And social networks are seriously a bane for people like me.
I seriously wished it was the P. Ramlee kampung era I'm living in, you know, where you have to visit each other's house to talk, borrow salt, sugar, rice whatever. Where neighbours don't shut their doors on you 24/7.
When you definitely can't expect to rely on a text or call to convey a message.


But when I'm done whining and procrastinating and reflecting, it all boils down to one thing.
If I want things to change, then I can only change myself.
Cause I'm born in this era.
And I made my choices.
It's time to get out of my comfort zone.
It's time to socialise again.
It's going to be awkward and hard in the beginning, but hey, I'm done complaining.