You only feel like touching me when you feel like it. When you're not in the mood then touching me makes you feel morally wrong. Repulsed? Disgusted? Just some of the words you used before. While I feel like touching you and being touched by you all the time. Which makes me what then? A wanton? A repulsive person? Just probably not someone who never stopped loving you and wanting you.

Texting me feels like a chore now. I was hoping so much that you would say no to that, but you didn't. And you only gave me that affirmation. When I still look forward to your texts and replies every, single day, every single time. When I still look forward to being in your company, in spending time with you. When I still love talking to you so much, you're still the person I look to telling things to the most all the time.

Can I blame anyone but myself though?
I was supposed to move on so long ago, but I didn't.
So I deserve to get hurt like this right?

You knew this was coming so you kept telling yourself to cut yourself away before he does.
But you stayed.
So you had this coming.
You deserve this.