I remember how you used to not look forward to cny in the past.
But it sounded like you were earlier.
I seem so selfish I know, that I'm actually bothered that you are.
But it's because it's apparent that you are happier, so much happier now.
With your newfound status, with who you are with now.
And it's weighing on me heavily now that I'm bothered, because I wished you happiness but I'm not really meaning it.
I had hoped that your happiness lies with me, but have I been deluding myself all along?
I'm selfish.
That's what I am.
And I don't like the person I keep seeing in the mirror now.